STOP by Abby Jean

​02-14-17

I gotta stop loving you…
Ew, I turn darker than blue.
Black.
I feel black without loving you.

I gotta stop loving you.
For my health, for my sanity.
Creases form between my brows.
Under my breath I leak profanity.

I feel mad.
I feel angry… vex.
Why can’t it all be so simple?
I don’t wanna move onto the next.

“I don’t wanna.”
Like a baby, a little kid.
“I don’t wanna.”
Arms crossed, pouting lip…

Fuck adult life.
I’m sick of being mature.
It’s tiring and exhausting.
Unnatural for my nature.

My heart wants what it wants.
And it won’t shut up about it.
My mind rolls it’s eyes.
So annoyed, just fucking do it!

I gotta stop loving you.
My health is failing.
One way road off a cliff.
I’m just there, dangling.

I gotta stop loving you.
But my pride won’t stop.
Been patient for so long.
To stop makes my stomach drop.

My heart might stop.
Grow mold and rot.
But I gotta stop.
‘Cause this shit hurts a lot…

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